I know I know it’s been quite a while since I last wrote! I think the last time I wrote was in February… 6 FRIGGIN MONTHS!! Not cool I know and I do apologize but I’ve actually had a lot going on… sort of lol.
So on to the the big news.. I GOT A JOB!! Don’t get me wrong, I loooooved my old job. I mean who wouldn’t love working at the bookstore, an independent bookstore right by the beach with the coolest boss ever?! But it was time for me to put my big girl pants on and find a job that has benefits and all that and guess what? I FOUND ONE!! I now work for Marriott. It has officially been 3 months since I started working there. It’s crazy how different it is to what I was used to. I mean it’s even completely different than the internships I had when I was in school! But it’s been fantastic! I love it there and my coworkers are great! Even my managers are great! I got lucky truth be told. I was part of the opening committee for this new Marriott in downtown. I am a Guest Service Representative (which basically translates to being front desk among other things). It’s a great mix of meeting new people and doing paperwork. It’s funny because one of my coworkers asked why I loved doing paperwork so much. I just do! It keeps me busy and sane. I guess part of me can’t let go of deadlines and paperwork. Honestly, I love this new job. I finally feel like I’m stepping into adulthood. This job has a 401K and benefits such as health insurance, life insurance etc. It feels amazing to know that I pretty much have a career for the rest of my life if I continue to work hard and do well.
Back in February I talked about how difficult it has been adjusting to life without school. It continues to be a struggle, perhaps not a huge struggle like it was at first, but definitely an adjustment. Grad school is still on my mind. At this moment in my life I don’t want to go to grad school. The idea of being in debt for practically the rest of my life is daunting and truth be told i want to continue living my life! As much as i love school, at this particular moment I’m ok without it. The great thing about working for Marriott is the discounts I can get when I travel. Now that I finally started to accumulate vacation days, I’m excited to start planning these trips that I have been dying to do! The harder I work the more realistic these trips seem to be. Hopefully during these trips i’ll finally find the place i want to live. As much as i love California, and i do i really do love it, and it’ll always be home, I just can’t see myself living here for the rest of my life. I need a quieter life. I want to live in a small town where nature surrounds us and the community is familial. i want to live at a spot where i get to experience all four seasons! It’s funny how we always want things that we don’t have or can’t have. The great thing working for Marriott is that I can always get transferred to a different one at a different state! We’ll see how things pan out.
As far as the rest of my life goes nothing has really changed. I still live with my parents which I’m trying to change. I love my family very much and do not have any issues with them but at this point in my life I feel like my next step is getting a place of my own. The way i see it is this: I graduated high school with honors, I got my BA with honors, and now i have a great “adult” type job with benefits and a decent pay. I feel like the next step in my life is to save up and find a place of my own. I would rather live by myself but rent in Los Angeles is hard enough as it is with a roommate, i don’t even want to fathom what it would be like by myself. My goal is to move out before my 25th birthday (which is next year people!!). For now I’m saving as much as I can and I’m starting to buy things that I will need at my new place. I’m keeping an eye out for a decent place for now and daydreaming of the day I move out.
~the real journey begins
Hey there I’m back. It’s been a while since I last wrote. I meant to write sooner but it’s been kind of hectic. I finally checked out that church Christina told me about. It is very beautiful and very connected. It was exactly what I was looking for. I’m going to try to go to Sunday morning mass tomorrow. I’m really hoping this is what I’m looking for. Its funny how unexpected it was for me to look for a new church. My dad asked me the other day where I had gone so early in the morning and when I told him I had gone to church, he just looked at me funny and said ok.
Moving on, it has been such an adjustment now that I’m done with school. The transition has definitely been a lot harder that I anticipated. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t think it was going to be a walk in the part but I don’t know I guess I was just expecting it to be different, easier even. The first couple of months it was very exciting. The concept of being done with school was amazing ! I mean i love school and i love learning new things but i mean come on. who wants to always be pressured to turn things in at a specific time. i sure don’t. it was great to be able to read any book i wanted instead of reading something because i had to,, but truth be told now that I’m done and more than half a year has passed, i truly miss it. Funny thing is that I don’t know if i want to necessarily pursue getting a masters. At this point all I want is to get a better job.
My priorities have definitely changed. While i was still in school, I really wanted to get my BA then my MA then eventually my PhD. But the more I think about it the less i want that. I want to find a 45K or better job right now with benefits. I want to save up money and move out. I want to find that special someone and get married. I want to travel with my husband and then settle down. I want to buy a house not in a big city outside of California and have kids. I want a house full of noise made buy happy kids, barking dogs and love. I want a simple and happy life.
Will I eventually go back to school ? I don’t know. There are days when I wish with all my might that I was back in school. There are other days, however, where I am absolutely happy with the decision i made. And its not so much as because I’m lazy and don’t want to do the work. But mainly I want to live my life! I want to explode the world ! I want to get to know different people and make new friends. I want to develop new hobbies and start running ! Catch up on all the books I’ve always wanted to read watch all of the movies and shows i missed because of school. I like drinking wine and relaxing and not have to worry about assignments.
Anyway, am I happy with life right now? i think i am. do i have doubts about the future? well sure doesn’t everyone? I just hope that at the end of the day i made the right decisions for ME. I’m sure i will land a better job soon (positive thinking here) I’m sure i will get my own place soon enough. I’m sure everything will work out. it has to right !?
~the real journey begins
Lately, I’ve had so much on my mind; career. religion, social life, life in general ! It’s crazy how the moment your brain is free for a little bit, you start to think about everything. it has been extremely overwhelming. But I figure the best solution to some of my problems is to write about them. Maybe then I will find some answers. Now, to tackle these one by one.
Religion. I am a Catholic. My parents are both Catholics and raised my brother and I as Catholics. My extended family is pretty damn religious (probably really shouldn’t be saying damn as I’m writing about Catholicism…). I am talking about over-the-top yell and cry religious. I’m not judging at all I am simply painting a picture here but I am definitely not at that level. My parents have always believed that my brother and I should be the ones to decide (a) if we want to continue with our faith, and (b) just how religious we wan to be. I cannot tell you how lucky and blessed I am to have parents that are so open0minded and gave us the freedom to make our own decisions. Growing up I did go to Sunday Mass for many years. I was baptized at the age of 5 under the Catholic church but I was never forced to do my first communion and confirmation. I’ll be honest with you, there was a moment in my life where I didn’t consider myself a Catholic. I hadn’t gone to church in a very long time and I hadn’t truly prayed. I still believed in God (that’s never changed nor will it ever) but I wouldn’t go so far as to call myself a Catholic (only during that time).
Everything changed when I became an Anthropologist. I began studying about all sorts of religions and beliefs. It intrigued me to learn about all of these. I liked the ideas and notions of some of the religions I was studying. During these times I didn’t truly consider myself a Catholic mainly because of everything that was happening with the Catholic Church but also because I just wasn’t so devote. I began exploring all sorts of different religions because of school but also I was “soul searching” (as cliche as that sounds). The funny thing is that even though many of these religions were interesting, none fully captured my hear like Catholicism did. I’m glad i explored many of these religions. It made me realize how much i missed and loved being Catholic.
I guess now I’m just looking for MY church. I do have a childhood church here but we mainly went to the spanish mass (which I don’t want to necessarily do) but also my favorite priest left. Right now I want to try this church my friend recommended to me. What I’m looking for is to be part of a community. I should say to be part of a Catholic community. I feel like its something that is missing in my life. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends and family and I love hanging out with them and being with them, but I feel like there’s something else missing in my life. I guess I’ll find out soon enough.
~the real journey begins